3.31.2008

夜有所夢


去兩個星期天﹐曾造過同樣傻得可以﹑但感覺幾可亂真的「噩夢」﹕

一篇論文在數天後截紙﹐現在還沒有開始作資料搜集﹐遑論動手撰稿﹗這篇論文直接影響畢業的日期﹐不禁冷汗浹背。因為論文沒有交好﹐必須在學校多唸一個學期﹐但學校附近的房子已被租滿﹐如立錐無地﹐不知如何是好……
碩士畢業也N年了﹐一覺醒來﹐驀然記起鑲在玻璃框架的文憑﹐還是好端端地藏於高閣﹐讓灰塵為它們悉心嘉冕。交不了功課﹑沒有地方歇腳這些胡塗事情﹐也從來沒有在現實中出現過。

每當生活遇上一丁點壓力﹐有些人總會把它們抑壓於潛意識裡﹐只有在睡夢中才不知不覺地露出端倪。例如T會在睡夢中被陌生人追趕﹐或參與大規模毆鬥。醒來後他會渾身疲乏﹐十分折騰。我則會重造稍前描述的異夢﹐想想在過去十年﹐也不知道來來去去被這個不太恐怖的「噩夢」探訪過多少次。

其實我面對的所謂壓力﹐微不足道。過去二十個星期﹐我報讀了一個全職法語課程﹐一星期五天﹐每天和兩名私人法語導師交流七小時。這個星期四便要到聯邦政府的官方語言局應考法語會話﹐是一個約三十分鐘長的單對單面試。

在二月的時候﹐我已順利完成了閱讀及文法的考試(100分鐘內完成80道選擇題)﹐取得了工職上需要的成績。會話是最後一關﹐也是最困難的一關。

儘管一切準備就緒﹐養兵千日﹐用在一朝﹐潛意識還是有一點壓力。

9 comments:

光.軍 said...

將壓力轉化為動力吧!奸爸嗲呢! Good LUCK :D

Simon said...

Wow, a full time French course for 20 weeks and 7 hours per day??!! That's impressive. I could only wish that I had a few hours every week to spare for Japanese lessons but with my job and travel plans, I doubt that I could take any language courses anymore.

P.S. I used to have the same kind of dream about thesis, final exams, etc...

Wordy said...

類似而又反覆會做的噩夢我沒有,倒是偶然會做不同類型(不同環境、對手等)給人追趕的夢。近來學會「放棄」自己,少做了 ^_^

T 參與大規模毆鬥的那種噩夢好激!

galaxy said...

啊~~因為學法文令自己有壓力所以發惡夢。
覺得自己已盡力, 無愧, 便可睡得好了。

lemon tree said...

總覺得對自我有要求的人,才會感受到壓力。 其實有壓力也不壞事的,有時反更能激起內在的潛能,會愈戰愈勇。Take it easy la...

祝會話考試成功,一切順利!

Artman said...

不知為何我總是比較少發夢, 其實是可能有發夢但醒來之前已經忘記得乾乾淨淨.

alan間中便會發夢被人追逐, 但其實不是人, 而是面目猙獰的怪獸, 還說有一次幾乎被惡夢弄至哮喘發作, 如果這樣便送命都不知是福是禍...

best actor said...

謝謝各位朋友的鼓勵。

光.軍
最重要是不讓緊張的神經影響聽力及思維。聽音樂有助鬆馳神經﹐我有一些法語專輯﹐希望可以潛意識地發揮吸收作用。

Simon
Yeah, it took me more than a year and a half to materialize my learning plan. It's part of the requirement of my current position (and for future promotions), hence my boss has no choice but to support. This language training arrangement also cost me dearly: I had to forego SL's HK concert in November 2007.

Wordy
世上有酒囊﹐有飯袋﹐我應該是睡貨的俵俵者。我十分拿手一覺睡到天明﹐中途毫無夢境(或記不起)﹐是罕有天賦的特異功能。也因為百份之九十的覺睡得又甜又香﹐那百份之十的不盡完美經驗更為突出。對﹐能學會減輕壓力對健康極有好處。心之所安也是身之所安。

T的性格最好和平﹐參與大規模毆鬥是最安全的發洩。

galaxy
當然盡了力應該於心無愧﹐但總覺得自己可以做得更好。不過我勝於大慈大悲﹐自責一陣就會寬恕自己﹐風流快活去。

lemon tree
是的﹐我也覺得壓力是無可避免的﹐既然如此﹐應該善用這種力量。有時候嚼一下口香糖便能減一些壓﹐提高注意力﹐不知道是不是我比較阿Q﹖

Artman
我也是無夢族﹐所以一造夢事必有因。Alan的哮喘蠻嚴重的。聽說有些人因為開始游泳﹐疾病慢慢不藥而癒。一切還是健康為上。

Simon said...

"This language training arrangement also cost me dearly: I had to forego SL's HK concert in November 2007. "

Indeed....It was Sandy's best concert ever, at least from my point of view. I still get excited thinking about the last show and how everyone, my mom included, was up dancing and shaking with Sandy. The Live DVD will be out on April 3rd and hope you will enjoy it....

Best,
Simon

best actor said...

I agree that this is SL's best cocnert to date (I am sure she will outdo herself next time, haha). Wow even your mother was moved by the live music, it was quite a testament to the magic of her music. I ordered the DVD from yesasia as soon as it was available for pre-order. Waiting, of course, is the hardest thing.

Cheers,

V.

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